Welcome to my new blog. I don’t know if I will stay on this particular blog or not, but in the mean time…this place will have to do. I’m pretty helpless with computers/the web and find WordPress to be a lot more complicated then Blogger and figuring out how to make the most of this blog isn’t exactly what I call fun.
I don’t like this template, nor can I post photos in the way I like. But the good thing is, if I am patient, I’m sure this blog will be a lot more pretty then the last one. It’s just going to take me some time to figure everything out. WordPress gives me more options to play around and adjust the blog which is nice once I get the hang of it.
With a new blog, its time to announce some other news. (take a deep breath) I’m pregnant!
There I’ve said it. I’ve been keeping this secret for 2 months and its kind of nice that I don’t have to keep it in anymore. Not that I was dying to tell people. On the contrary, I needed the time to come to terms with the unexpected/unplanned situation, and now that I’ve more or less accepted my future of stress marks, fat thighs, big belly, and a mini person in my life, I feel its alright to tell people.
Lets get to the juicy details I know everyone can’t wait to know.
I do NOT have a pregnancy glow to me. I’m VERY realistic about pregnancy and mother hood. I’ve spent the better part of my childhood caring for my siblings and come adulthood most of my jobs were childcare related. I worked at preschool for of 2 years, a children’s gym for 2 years etc. Children are not a novelty to me. If you grew up in my situation of being surrounded by babies you wouldn’t have a rosy view of children or mothers either. Its freakin hard work and life will never be the same. But despite my negative view of parenthood, I do realize that most if not all parents I know are extremely happy with their bundle of work and wouldn’t dream of changing the pass or can’t imagine their life any other way. So please bear with me on my negativity. I’m hoping I will fall in love with my child when its born and be happy. In the mean time, I’m entitled to not being particularly excited about my future. Judge if you want. But I’m representing the minority of pregnant females who don’t find pregnancy to be absolutely wonderful.
I take each day as it comes and deal with things the best I can. I have good days and I have bad days. On the bad days, nothing anyone says about how wonderful becoming a mother is will make me feel better. On good days, I can agree that life isn’t so bad, but I’ve still yet to feel that elation and excitement. I have two emotions, 1. Absolutely dreading the future, 2. Accepting of the future, but not in any way happy.
Things that make me love pregnancy (Not)
1. Ouch boobs growing every day. Please do not bump into me or look at me strangely if I suddenly cup my breasts because of the pain.
2. Not being able to drink alcohol even though I’ve never been much of a drinker. 1 glass is usually enough for me, but I do like wine and I miss it! I don’t enjoy social situations where everyone but me is drinking.
3. My acute sense of smell. More things than not smell horrible to me! Garlic, onions, and surprise surprise meat and fish I detest even more! If you just finished eating Chinese food, McDonald’s, Eggs etc, I will know and I will not appreciate it if you
talk to me get close to me. My dream world would smell of cucumbers, lemons, and apples. ah, now those are nice smells!
4. Carb cravings. Give me bread, any ol’ bread, and just stick it on my thighs. I expect to become a big fat loaf of bread after these 9 months are over.
5. Bottomless hunger that’s making me expand in all directions. When pregnant females say they are hungry and eat more than you’ve ever seen them eat before, it’s not because they are using it as a good excuse to eat. NO, we really are HUNGRY, and cravings really do exist. Be nice and offer us your food. And when we want a tomato, do not give us a plum, give us a God damn tomato.
6. Hormones that make me feel like an adolescent teenager. Pimples? check. Crying for no particular reason? check. Sore and growing boobs? check. Sudden curves around the hips? check. How glamorous I feel!
7. Some discomforts when running. I get cramps. They aren’t the “I’ve just had meal” type of side cramp, but rather a cramp in the uterus. I usually get it about 30mins into running and am forced to slow down. I also get out of breath easier which makes me feel really out of shape! I never used to get out of breath climbing stairs!
8. Having to go to the bathroom every hour of the day and night.
There’s more. But I want to end this post on a positive note.
Some pro’s about pregnancy.
1. Uber strong nails growing faster than I can maintain them!
2. Nice healthy looking hair. But I’m not quite sure I can thank pregnancy for this because my hair started looking really healthy after getting into raw food last year.
3. Feeling justified to buy all organic. My health is #1!
humm….and thats about it. Less pro’s then con’s at the moment, but maybe tomorrow I’ll be able to add a 4th.