Yesterday while teaching Yoga, one of my students and running buddies whispered “You have a tiny belly now.” while gesturing with her hands a belly bump. I told her I felt huge and she repeated, “Its tiny!” Obviously not tiny enough for her to not notice though.
I do not feel tiny. I just feel fat and I’m not liking it. Just a few days ago I started noticing that in certain clothing, I definitely have a belly. Tiny or not, I’m not used to having a belly, so I find it really disturbing. It’s frustrating being in this stage where I’m not big enough to actually look pregnant, but definitely bigger then my usual self that I worry people (who don’t know I’m pregnant) will think I’ve just gained weight. Ugh, pregnancy!
One thing a student said to me made me smile though. After congratulating me he said, “It’s too bad you won’t be able to teach the whole time though. Will you come back to teach after the baby is born?” Ben, you really made my day! And yes, I promise to teach again eventually. It’s frustrating not knowing exactly when I will have to stop teaching yoga and when I can go back to teaching.
Motozo and I talked about it that evening and the dear said he’ll happily care for the kid on Saturdays so I can teach and we’ll hire a nanny for my weekday class 🙂 Of course, I know it’s not as simple as hiring a nanny, but I am quite determined to go back to my semi normal routine as soon as its possible. We’ll see, we’ll see.
In awesome, wonderful and fabulous news! I feel 100% better! Right around the cusp of the 2nd trimester I started feeling like my normal self. I have an enormous boost of sudden energy and my moods are WAY more stable. If I didn’t actually have this “belly” then I wouldn’t even feel pregnant. Its fabulous! So far, what all the pregnancy books say about the 2nd trimester being easier has been true. The first trimester I was quite fatigued and cranky all the time. I didn’t notice HOW tired I was though until now when I have something to compare with.
Plans for the day:
1. Sit down with Motozo to discuss and write-up a draft of a birthing plan. I have to submit my birthing plan at my next appointment, so it’ll be nice to get it done sooner rather than later. Question for you mothers out there. Did you write a birthing plan? Did your plan go as planned? Or was your “plan” completely derailed due to sudden circumstances? I have a pretty good idea of how I want things to be during labor, but I’m trying to keep an open mind and understand that somethings will be completely out of control and the Birthing Plan may be abandoned.
2. Go shopping for clothing that successfully hides my bump and makes me look slimming. Ha, good luck there!
3. Try my best not to mention how fat I feel. (you can do it Meg!)
And now to go dig into my current obsession. Sunflower butta! Another great buy in Australia. I love it!
I wish they sold this in Japan! I think I could make sunflower butter myself though. Oo, that would be a fun challenge.
For some reason it looks really gray in the photo. On the right, sunflower butter. On the left, hummus. mmmm, yum!