Category Archives: Uncategorized

October 13th 2014

Hello dear blog,

Sorry, I abandoned you. At my defense, you did give me some technical difficulties the last time I tried to blog by making my entire post disappear suddenly. That didn’t really inspire me to go back to blogging. Well, here we go again.

I’m not quite sure how I want go go about blogging this time around. I thought about doing something a bit more informative and educational with yoga tips etc, but I decided I will just play it by ear. I’m just not organized enough to put together an informative piece, but its not completely off the table. The issue is photos and/or movies. I think they are easier for when it comes to explaining things such as yoga.

I think I’m going to be blogging more as a journal of sorts to figure some things out and to grow more as a person/adult/mother/wife. I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching and I really want to go forward in my life in a positive way. I hope this space can be a safe way for me to babble to figure things out and/or to document somethings.

Body Image

Right now, I’m in a bit of a rut. First time in a long time where Im really struggling with exercise and healthy eating. I was telling my friend the other day that my body feels so foreign to me. Clothes that used to be comfortable on me aren’t comfortable anymore and its concerning. I feel heavy, but not exactly unhealthy. I’m still pretty strong. I have stamina and I recover pretty fast from hard workouts. Still, something isn’t feeling quite right. I’m having a hard time listening to my body’s cues of hunger and satiation. This often results in me overeating. Feeling frustrating. Feeling negative towards my body and that often results in emotional eating. Its a cycle I’ve been struggling a lot this year and my weight has creeped up. I don’t weight myself. I go by how my clothes fit and how I feel. My running and yoga has suffered and as a result I don’t enjoy them as much. I have trouble sleeping and I find myself craving foods that should have no place in anyone’s diet (I’m talking to you fries!)

quotes1

Time to start cutting back on the junk. Let me just be completely honest that I’ve been a pretty junky vegan recently. Sure I still do eat a lot of veggies and fruit, but I also eat way too much of junk. My body is screaming at me to stop. I’m eager to feel vibrate and healthy again. Last year I was running great and I had tons of energy. I felt confident and looked forward to activities that I now shy away from.

I recently took a couple yoga workshops and I was so self conscious of my body that i just simply couldn’t enjoy myself. This is really sad. Not only do I want to feel healthy, but I also want to embrace and love myself no matter what. I can’t let my appearance hold me back in life.

quotes4

What I am quite fond of and what used do wonders for me are positive affirmations. My affirmation for today is: I forgive myself for eating the wrong foods and I transcend all feelings of unworthiness.

I welcome tomorrow and its new beginning for me.

quotes2

Good night Monday.

Advertisements

March: Spring!

Hello blog,

So, I’ve basically determined that Fridays are really the only days I can blog. I guess I could maybe do some blogging over the weekend, but I’m not going to be too ambitious. What I do need to work on is taking more photos. I feel bad that I don’t take many photos of Ty any more and life in general. But I will start taking more photos and not just posting them on Instagram. Time to pull out the big camera and take good photos and actually take the time to load them into the computer. After all, that’s one of the reasons (at least for me) we bought a desktop computer. It has more storage space and easier for blogging with the keyboard and mouse.

Anyhoo, Spring is around the corner! How can I tell? When my eyes start getting itchy and I come back from my runs with bloodshot eyes and nose that won’t stop running. Fun times! I honestly am really looking forward to it getting warmer though. I’ve never looked forward to warmer weather because I don’t really function well in heat, but this year feels different. I’m tired of being cold all the time, wearing multiple layers when running (shorts! I can’t wait to wear running shorts!), and getting Ty bundled up and then taking the layers off again is a pain in the ass. This year we also have the beach house to look forward to. Can’t wait to spend time in our yard (hello outdoor yoga!), make simple meals, and just breath in lots of salty beach air. AH, I can’t wait. Of course, I may be singing a different tune once humidity rolls in, ha. We go down to the beach house tonight and I’m looking forward to seeing our Ume tree in full bloom!

The biggest news of all that I must document here is that Ty may be ready for some formal potty training. Thanks to his new daycare, he suddenly is quite keen on doing his business on the potty. The daycare takes all the kids at designated hours to use the loo and the teachers say he always does #1 without any problem. Last week he even went in a public toilet in Costco! I was so shocked when he said he wanted to go too while I was doing my business. For a split second I thought how trouble some to take off his shoes and pants in a dirty public toilet, but I went with it and I’m so glad I did when it was successful. Even just the fact that he was willing to sit on a public toilet is amazing! And then, this morning (drum roll please) he did #2 on the potty! He likes to stand when he does it and he doesn’t like me to go near him, so I just presumed sitting might be tough for him, but since he already had his diaper off and I could see that he was pushing I quickly told him to sit on the potty and he willing sat! I left the room since he likes privacy and when I come back he was done. We examined his accomplishment and LOTS of cheering made him feel pretty good I think. He even asked to sit on the toilet before leaving the house. His diaper was dry so I was thrilled. THRILLED! Planning to take the potty with us to the beach house this weekend so we can hopefully continue this awesome streak. Maybe I’ll even pack the big boy undies and let him run around without pants since we have flooring in the house.

These photos aren’t related to the post, but since photos make a post more interesting and fun I decided to post them anyway.

Parents are obviously enjoying this more than Ty.ha

IMG_0832

Let me on daddy!

IMG_0945

Fun with a friend.

IMG_1055

IMG_1056

 Strawberry muffins smelling divine! Hope Ty likes them.

IMG_1073

Tagged

Restarting My Sleeping Blog

Hello Blog,

Geez, it’s been a very long time! Almost a whole year to be exact! It’s funny that I started making an attempt to blog more when it turned Spring last year and here am I doing the same thing now. ha. I was just reading over the last posts about feeling bad about putting Ty into his new daycare and its funny because he’s going through the same thing right now.

Alright, so why this sudden burst of desire to blog? For a long time I wanted to start blogging again, but time really permitted it. Then I realised that if I spend less time looking at “educational” YouTube videos then I’d have more time to blog. Yes, I’m guilty of being addicted to YouTube.
I’ve sort of adjusted to my new routine, although life feels pretty hectic still. But anyhow, I want to channel some creative energy somewhere. Honestly, my daily hum de hum of life is stressing me out and I’m finding less joy in things that I normally find enjoyable (i.e. running, yoga, cooking) so I thought visiting this little spot occasionally might help me find my joy in life again by having a space to empty out the thoughts in my head. Somehow this makes sense in this brain of mine.

So where do I start?! Ty started a new daycare a month ago and he’s finally getting used to it and enjoying himself there as of a couple of days ago. Well, actually he has been enjoying himself from about a week into it, but he finally doesn’t make a big fuss when I bring him in and since yesterday he runs in his room all excited to play with the toys and friends. After I get him settled (public daycare requires hands on parent work so there is a little routine I need to do daily that takes 5-10mins depending on the days) he says good-bye to me without even turning around to look at me from whatever activity he’s doing. Heartbroken just a little. In the coming days I’m certain I will elaborate more about the pros and cons of this new place. But for today I’ll keep it short, sweet and positive. He’s used to his new daycare now YAY!

Whats up with me? From this year I started teaching 2 prenatal yoga classes and 2 postnatal classes. For the pass 2 years I only taught 1 prenatal class and maybe once a month I subbed for “Yoga for Athletes” class. Teaching 4xs a week has its challenges. I like to prepare my classes well before teaching and it takes a little bit of time. Of course, there are days when I just teach on the fly, but I generally like to run through what Im going to teach and have a specific theme/focus for the class. So my evenings the first few weeks have been filled with filling out whatever Ty’s new daycare needs me to fill out and prepping for my class. I feel like I have zero down time. But who am I kidding…teaching yoga IS my down time. And I kid you not. I love it! Prenatal yoga is going really well. I have full class on a consistent basis and for the first time ever I actually made something to contribute to our finances last month, ha. Even though it’s a VERY SMALL contribution, hey I’m allowed to feel pretty proud of myself, no?
Postnatal yoga has been slow. I was nervous about teaching it since its my first time to teach it, but when students arrive its very rewarding. One studio (I teach at 2 different studios) has students consistently and they are blast since they’ve been coming to my class during pregnancy so we know each other well and its like hanging out friends and having good laughs with cute crying bundles around.
The other studio is still going to take time to draw students in I feel. It’s a little disappointing when no one shows up, especially because I do put though into my classes (and time), but I think I need to be more proactive about advertising my class. And just be patient. My prenatal classes are thriving, so if those keep busy I will eventually get some new mamas who are interested in continuing their yoga practice after their babies arrive. Fingers crossed.

Now that the weather is warming up are looking forward to visiting our home in Shimoda more often and work on getting the place all cozy for us and guests to hang out in. The kitchen got a facelift. The wall was torn down so we have a sort of open plan now and a new beautiful wood counter. Cabinets and walls were repainted and now were looking into lights and putting in new flooring. The wall papers for almost the entire house has to be done and we need lots of appliances (fridge, laundry dryer) etc. Then theres the outdoor area. We have a beautiful and quite large amount of land and it was over grown with weeds, so thats finally taken care of and we can actually see the ground now. Grass will be planted soon and eventually we’d like to build a deck. So exciting! So much to look forward to, but also a little time consuming. Every time we go down to the house we spend a lot of time unpacking boxes, building furniture, shopping, etc so were looking forward to a time when we can just enjoy the house.

I don’t know why exactly (actually I do), but I suddenly don’t have as much joy in running any more. Last year I went pretty crazy with my running and unfortunately I think I even developed a slight hamstring issue. I was really enjoying running last year and ran hard and strong. I made pretty big progress as far as speed and stability goes and I was highly motivated. My body felt great to run, I lost weight, I had tons of energy and then poof this year that motivation is gone.  Number 1 reason is pure exhaustion. Ty keeps me up a lot at night and with his new daycare schedule and my yoga classes, I feel like I’m constantly rushing everywhere and when I run on top of all that, I feel like I’m a little hamster running in a wheel.  I rush to take Ty to daycare, then I rush to get my run in, I rush to get ready to teach, I rush to yoga class, I somehow calm myself and teach a non rushed class, then I’m rushing back home or rushing to pick up Ty. I rush all my meals. Then theres still my to-do list in the evening after Ty goes down and man, I just feel too busy. So this is where my personal yoga practice has really spoken to me lately. I feel my body and mind benefits so much more on the rare days where I just don’t run and instead focus just on yoga. My focus on running lately is highly driven by my weight loss efforts (stress and exhaustion makes me gain weight unfortunately) and its just not healthy. It goes against everything I teach in yoga to listen and respect the body. I want to switch my focus of running for weight loss to running for health and for the pure joy of moving my body. For everything, I need to change my thought from weight loss to vibrate health. Health and happiness is my focus from this Spring. I want to walk and look my talk. Right now I feel like a hypocrite. I feel like my life is a little lie, so its time to take action. To be honest, raw and completely real. It’s time to listen and respect my body and my mind. Through this I hope I can find a healthy and joyful way to run again like last year when man, running was just AMAZING!

And with that I’m signing off to spend some time on my mat before picking up the toddler.

Namaste and peace to everyone!

Challenge Fail. Ha!

Right, so how many days has it been since I last posted? Far too many, I don’t even remember. After the Canon lens broke (still haven’t brought it in to be repaired) I lost my mojo. The challenge was to post photos with the good camera and I tried to keep it up with my iphone and/or Davids camera, but I lost the fun in the challenge.

Ty has  also been sick lately so I’ve had my mind and evenings (the only time when I can blog) occupied. Once I had any free time I just wanted to chill infront of the TV with David and thats what I choose to do. David and I are going through Desperate House Wives and it’s really addictive and fun. 

Any hoo, at least I made it 2 weeks right? hehe

I will get the camera fixed and will post good quality photos eventually, but until then I think my post will be kind of sporadic and sparse. 

March 3rd: Pirate Party

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend! I for one had a pretty rough one. Ty hasn’t been sleeping well and is on the boob the whole night long and then he wakes up super cranky and thus grating on my nerves. He also is not eating much (he goes through fazes of eating more or less) and although I’ve gotten better at relaxing and not making a big deal of it….well, today I found it exceptionally irritating when Ty would spit out his food constantly. No matter what I made for him he’d just take 2-3 bites and announce that he’s finished by spitting out his food. Oh, well….

Lets get to the more pleasant photos from our day. Starting with my simple breakfast before a short run. Thats sunflower butter on my apples. Love sunbutter and I order it all the time from iherbs incase one day Ty decides he likes it. Until then I’m happy to eat the entire thing. 🙂

Image

A friend hosted a pirate themed birthday party for their 4yr old boy so we went to that in the afternoon. I was beyond impressed with the amazing pirate themed spread the birthday boy’s mom put together.

Image

Pirate Pancakes
Image

Pirate cupcakes

Image

Ty made up for his lack of eating by devouring about 3 of those popcorn cups. Total popcorn monster!

Image

I don’t know how the host manages to make such an amazing spread! She’s a full time mom and has 2 kids. One is the same age is Ty! Puts me to shame!

Image

We went for a practical costume. Pirate pj! Didn’t see the point in getting a full on costume that he’ll most likely outgrow in a couple months. The PJ was a huge hit for Ty. I’ve never seen him get so excited over clothes before. He kept patting his pirate on his shirt hehe.
Image

Stealing the birthday boy’s balloon.

Image

David got into the spirit of the party ha.

This blog is already giving me a headache! For some reason he has deleted my text 3xs! And thats with also saving my draft! Tomorrow Im back to one photo a day.

Speaking of tomorrow, tomorrow is Ty’s first day at daycare. He’ll go for 4 hours, have lunch and possibly a short nap. Wish us luck for minimal amount of tears.

Photo A Day Challenge: March 1st, 2013

Hello blog, Please forgive my absence. My excuse, as always, is that life got in the way. Well, for the month of March I’ve put a challenge on myself. A photo a day challenge. This is not only an attempt to get me back into blogging but also to get me back into using my big Canon camera. These days the iphone is so handy and convenient that the Canon has been totally ignored for over a month! Poor thing! The challenge for this month would be to post photos with the good camera but if time/life gets in the way then iphone camera will have to do. I need the rules to be loose for this to work. The good thing about  just having to post a photo is that its more time efficient. So if I don’t have the time to type up a post I’ll feel perfectly fine with just a photo. Already, this challenge almost failed as I was rushing around like a mad women the first thing in the morning till finally I remembered the challenge at 2PM. Whew! Now where’s that camera….. Starting off this month with Ty! Well of course! Image Avocado pasta for the win! In the avocado sauce I pureed steamed broccoli and carrots and sauteed mushrooms. He had no idea and gobbled it up. Almost ate the entire serving you see here! My big boy is all about cutlery and is quite a pro with both spoon and fork. 🙂 Here’s to a fabulous month!

Thought today was March 1st. Turns out its Feb 28th. Oops. A day early. Oh, well, no harm done.

Tagged , , ,

This and That of Ty

Just a couple cute pictures of Ty doing what he does lately.

Give me the camera! His hair is getting more and more out of control!

This boy LOVES his books. He has learned that books = attention from mom and dad so he constantly asks us to read him books. His favorites are “The Hungry Caterpillar” an “ABC” book, and a couple other that are interactive that he can pull and flip to discover different things. When I find him flipping pages on his own its just too precious! I hope his love of books continue. Recently, he likes getting into “adult” books and flips through the boring pictureless pages and then brings them over to me to read to him. Of course, he loses interest in those books fast. I need to invest in more kiddy books for him.

The photo is crummy and you’ll have to ignore the mess in our door way. He went into a shoe closet the other day and found one of my highest heels and promptly attempted to put them on. He loves shoes since he knows it means going outside. When he gets bored and wants to go outside he brings me his shoes and gets really excited if I bring out his stroller.

He’s all into doing things he’s seen us do to ourselves or to him. He takes his nose nozzle and puts it in his nose even though he absolutely hates it if I do it to him.
He also likes to try put the thermometer in his armpit which ends up being just down his shirt.

Poor boy has a fever and his first pink eye. Man pink eye is nasty! He’ll have to stay away from other kids this week, the poor boy!

We Made It To San Francisco!

I don’t know how often I’ll manage to blog, but since this is an extra long holiday (over 3 weeks) it’ll be better for me to blog a bit while everything is still fresh.

We weren’t even sure if we should go on this trip after Ty came down with a fever at the end of last week. He ended up getting a cough and sounded more and more congested each night. So on Mon I took him to the Dr. to make sure he didn’t have an earache or anything and possibly give us something for his cough. He prescribed some cough meds for Ty and said to expect his cough to be worse after the flight and suggested we see a Dr when we arrive if were concerned. But he had no fever so we risked it and went.

Mon night I tried to download as many free toddler ipad apps that looked interesting. To be honest, I didn’t think it would keep Ty occupied for more than 5mins as Ty doesn’t take much interest in even watching TV, but I wanted to have something for back up.

Mon night Ty’s breathing was pretty loud and all I could think about was him having pneumonia. I ended up staying awake for hours worry myself silly about our trip. In the morning I wasn’t in such a good mood. I discussed again the cons of us going to Motozo as I have been for the pass 3 days leading up to our trip. I just really don’t want to regret anything later.

Sleepy grumpy me.

Well, we went, as the post title clearly states. To make add even more stress to our trip was Ty’s restlessness in the morning. I think he’s super sensitive to my emotions and could feel something was going to happen.
The ride to the airport was smooth with Ty making up for his lack of napping, by sleeping the entire bus ride. And once we checked in, had our last Tokyo sushi (natto maki for Ty and I), and went through customs, we let Ty play around at the play area. Was hoping he’d get his last bit of energy out so he’d zonk out on the plane. He was more interested in watching the other kids screaming and playing with their daddy. Then he discovered one little girl’s doll sticking out of her bag and he kept trying to get it. He did go down the slide a couple of times which he absolutely loved. I think he was already really tired with only 1 nap that he didn’t have much energy to play.

I was hoping Ty would sleep for most of the flight with it being an overnight flight and all. When we went to Hawaii when he was 5 months it also was an overnight flight and he slept pretty much the whole way there, but he’s older and more aware of his surroundings now so it was a little more difficult getting him settled this time around . He fussed for a bit, but he finally managed to fall asleep during take off and when he woke up an hr later he was in a good mood and didn’t seem to have any discomfort from the air pressure. He refused to eat anything (which is happening pretty often these days after he got sick), but had fun playing with my spoon and fork. There were some rough spots during the flight when I wanted a break, but he’d freak out if daddy carried him so it was pretty tiring for me. I had to pretty much carry him either on my lap or around the plane the whole time, but at least I was able to ask Motozo to get me things out of our bags if i needed anything and he was very helpful. Ty slept for the 2nd time on the plane for about 2-3hrs and then after that it was pretty hard getting him back to sleep again. We were happy to have the front row seats (as requested), but there was this huge TV right above/infront of us that was pretty stimulating for Ty. There was also a young boy on the other row next to us and he was having a hard time falling  asleep as well so when he’d fuss it would wake Ty up if he was just about to drift off and visa versa. They ended up playing with each other near the end of the flight though trading toys with each other which Ty enjoyed alot.
Ty finally gave us another break for 2 more hrs and woke up about 45mins to landing. And again he didn’t seem to have any discomfort with his ears or anything. But throughout the whole flight his cough did get worse and his nose started running. Poor thing! I offered him the boob and sippy cup for water throughout the whole flight so hopefully he got enough fluids.

He def was pretty tired when we arrived as he was fussy and didn’t want to ride in the stroller for long. Thankfully, customs was a breeze and the taxi ride into the city was super fast.
San Francisco is COLD! Well, considering how Tokyo is right now. It’s really lovely for me, but I do worry a bit about Ty with the change of temperature. As soon as we arrived in our little boutique hotel we turned on the heater. Ty examined the ceiling fan.

I was surprisingly feeling pretty energetic and felt like going for a run, but I knew Ty needed a little nap and Motozo and I didn’t sleep at all during the flight (it arrives 1AM Tokyo time), so I put my alarm on for 1.5hrs and we all took a snooze. That is until Ty decided to wake up crying hysterically an hour into our nap and it took him a super long time to settle. His nose was starting to get a little congested and the heater was on a little too hot, so I adjusted the temp and put my alarm back on for another 2 hours. But Ty again woke up screaming an hour later and I thought it best we all get up anyway. So I woke up my other boy and persuaded him that we needed to get into fresh air, sunshine, and grab some coffee or we will end up sleeping all day and jetlag will be a lot worse later.

I wanted to walk to the downtown area Union Square, so with coffees in hand, we walked down the chilly, windy, but beautiful streets. We found ourselves at China Town where Ty decided he had enough of sight seeing.

Poor boy just wanted to nurse and sleep. Dont worry I rescued him after this shot.

We roamed around for a bit and Ty fell asleep not long after this photo.

Sorry for the excessive iphone photos. Its just easier to pull out my phone rather than the DSLR and and whenever I do pull it out it seems I’ve forgotten to take good photos with it. Hopefully, I’ll get back into the habit of using the good cam more during this trip.

The major hilly streets. I LOVE IT!

We really didn’t have much appetite, but decided we should probably get a bite since the last time we ate was 8 hrs ago. I craved veggies, so I got a big salad with a small cup of blackbean chili. The chili was delicious, especially with the cool temps here.
I really wanted to love this salad, but the raspberry vinaigrette dressing was a little off and it made the salad a little disappointing. Still, I ate most of. Motozo ordered a vegetarian sandwich and could only finish half with lack of appetite, but the doggy bagged the rest up for Ty for whenever he woke.

On our way back to our hotel we tried to get a manicure as its been forever since I’ve had my nails done and its super cheap here (compared to Tokyo). But Ty woke up as soon as we found a place that could take us without reservations and I knew Ty would make a huge fuss and my nails would get all screwed up as soon as I finished them, so we abandoned the idea and just picked up some supplies for our hotel.

I still had a little energy to exercise, so I had Motozo take over and I snuck away to the hotel gym to do a short running workout. When I want to do a fast, but efficent workout on the treadmill I’ll do intervals. The easiest one that I enjoy is 3 mins slower paced running, followed by 2 mins of hard running. I repeated that for 6 rounds for a total of 30mins and was completely pooped and sweaty by the end. Felt great to squeeze in a little workout though.
My little fella gave dad a hard time, but Motozo brought him to the gym just as I finished my workout so it worked out well.

Ty is snoozing now and i hope it continues to for the rest of the night. We will see how it goes. Tomorrow we have more sight seeing plans.

Until then……

Quick Update

First of all, Happy Birthday to niece Amelie! 2 yrs old! Amazing! So looking forward to doing a little celebration when you visit Japan next month!

This weekend has been very low key with Ty having a fever which started Fri afternoon. I noticed earlier in the day that he was warm, but I chocked it up as him just being warm from the super hot weather we’re having here. But then in the evening I thought it was strange that he was warm even while being in air conditioner. Sure enough he had a fever and man nights are rough with a sick baby. He’s had zero appetite and for the first time in months I experienced engorgement. Ouch, made me wonder if I could ever successfully wean. That discomfort alone makes me want to nurse forever….well, not really, but I’m sure you mums out there know what I mean.

Getting his temperature checked and eating the biting on the thermometer case.

If theres one good thing out of a sick baby is the ultra cuddly baby that suddenly happens. He hardly ever just hangs out in my lap or stops moving for that matter when he’s well, so although it was tiring it also was kind of nice to spend so much time cuddling with him on the sofa.

Thankfully, on Sunday he’s a whole lot better and his fever has gone down. He’s taking super long naps which is totally not like him so he’s obviously not 100% yet.

Lets hope by Tuesday (we fly out to SF on Tues) he’s all genki like so.